Keith's Muse

Nostalgia

2011-01-11T07:51:00.000-08:00

God has not promised skies always blue,
Flower-strewn pathways all our lives through.
God has not promised sun without rain,
Joy without sorrow,
Peace with pain

But god has promised strength for the day,
Rest from labor,
Light for the way,
Grace for the trails,
Help from above
Unfailing sympathy,
Undying love
Always.

I wish I understood your efforts then. Time flies. I know I broke my promise. I will try to make an effort ok:)
Even now I'm still quite a unappreciative person. I'm learning.
Hey u make me a better person.
Sorry I treated Ur love and efforts so flippantly.
I'm learning how to love people like you. Know that I'm trying..

in school now

2010-03-02T20:22:00.000-08:00

in lab now. i will finish my reports. it's so easy. how difficult can it be....

Struggles

2009-11-28T01:30:00.000-08:00

keeping quiet
saying nothing
forgotten
trying not to prick

yet wanting so much
to be seen and heard
remembered
trying not to prick

i will be fine
i will be well
just trying not to dwell

set me free
set me free
from the cage in my heart
locking me

will i be honoured
will i be held up
i want to not impress
but for u to be happy with me

my mind is sick
my mind is needy
Dove
bring change to my heart
u can and only u can
Dove
i know u hear me

Emotional Vomit

2009-11-24T07:12:00.000-08:00

left by the wayside
it hurts
u left me there

clinging to what was
it hurts
u left me there

ur patronizing smile
endlessly pricking me
it hurts... again

let me sleep
let me breathe
let me live

2009-09-11T07:00:00.000-07:00

it's so good to have peace and quiet

2009-09-02T23:11:00.000-07:00

My heart
but a tearing cloth

seeking solace
nothing fits

what have i done to deserve this
what have u done to earn this

dissolving salt
Time passes
it's still there

what have i done to deserve this
what have u done to earn this

IDOL Updates

2009-06-23T00:59:00.000-07:00

Hey guys i got into Idol bootcamp! it was sooo coool.. I'm really grateful Hardy Mirza was there! he was really helpful. His tip got me into the next round man! he told me to not just accept what they say!!!! but fight for it. i really got to up it the next round. i'm still thinking of what i can do man. i really want to get in man!!!!! My bootcamp will be from the 12th of july to the 18th. Please remember me ok:)

Messed up world

2009-06-01T04:07:00.000-07:00

Messed up world is what live in.
mess and more messed up is what it's gonna be says chaos rule

But you know smth,

Putting things into order is what human beings are made for!

Clear up the mess in your life man

My Audition

2009-05-04T04:18:00.000-07:00

hi guys. this is my audition with zomrec. So i'm suppose to work with them and come up with a Demo later in these few months and then the real competition will start. U guys will have to vote and stuff. don't know the details yet. Stay tune:)

Fullness of time

2009-03-29T20:28:00.000-07:00

There is a time when everything will come together and everything will be as it should be.

i'm still waiting. it's not gonna be too long. soon keith soon:)

Collide - Howie day ( keith low)

2009-03-25T08:39:00.000-07:00

Did my new cover for collide!!! My first recorded english cover

Britney - For the record

2009-02-22T06:47:00.000-08:00

i was watching this documentry britney made. i was quite shaken by it actually.
Maybe some of you know that i've been wanting to be a singer and all. watching it i just suddenly feel quite afraid. one thing that she said that really struck me was that stardom was boring. She said that when you first get stardom it was really exciting but after a while i begins to take u as a prisioner and u feel trapped by the very same thing that made u famous. i wouln't know how that feels but it think it's not easy being famous. i didn't know that. i mean she was really crying and all. i've been rethinking about alot of my dreams. it's really important to take small steps in life. too much of a good thing too fast really screws ppl up no matter what it's about. i want to enjoy every bit and part of life. i want to see more.

i spy with my little eye

JOAANNA WANG MY NEW LOVE

2009-02-09T05:44:00.000-08:00

You have the most attractive eyes

i just can't stop looking at your eyes

You are such a mystery and

it excites me

what is in you that has caught me

never have i met someone so mersmerising

I did a cover on Gary Cao's Bei pan

2009-02-04T01:39:00.000-08:00

support me on you tube as well
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ax4ZkOfazKI

It's ok that i am a loser ( sometimes)

2009-01-29T07:49:00.000-08:00

talked to a close friend today and we talk about friendships and all. i was quite touched by what she said and all... and it kept me thinking. i realised that in our friendship it was ok that i was a loser at times. It's like i feel good even when i look bad. hahah. Many times we want to look good and respected by our friends (that's ok ) just that today i realised that it's ok to look like a loser in front of some of my friend. They make me feel that it's really ok. there are only a few ppl in my life that make me feel that way. I thank god for all of them. ( i really mean it even though it's cliched)

Free up man, be a loser once in a while can be really .... interesting

IN SCHOOOOOL

2009-01-20T20:56:00.000-08:00

school started!
I constantly feel like i'm behind time.
there is just so much to do man
this year has been a good start i have been studying.

blog blog blog

suppose to be studying now but i don't feel like doing it at all man hahah. tmr's a super long day.
i want to sleep.
didn't have too good a sleep last night.
dreamt about some vampire wanting to kill a girl.
guess what the girl did?

she said she rather commit suicide than becoming a vamp.

To all Twilight readers:

Vampires are bad creatures.

Stop fantasizing about EDWARD for goodness sake!!!!!!!!!!1

back for a brief moment

2008-12-30T00:16:00.000-08:00

i'm back back back. after a month of crazy events. i'm back ready to start school gain!!! i need a job man. HELP HELP. Anyway if you guys got any person who needs a tutor , refer to me, will get them a tutor and u get a comission as well!!!!!!!!!
Enough of business. had too much fun the whole of last month. it's time to come back to earth now yay.

Skii

2008-12-05T06:06:00.000-08:00

Just watch some tv Show. One of must my must dos in life!!! i want to go on a mountain skiing trip. i want to do the treking kind not the recreational kind. the kind that need me to spend days in the mountains. It just so way cool. i want to do it. i know i'm crazy saying this but I think this beats shopping hands down. I'm serious!!

I'm in LOVEEEEE!

2008-11-30T21:05:00.000-08:00

i'm in love with someone!
Feeling so overdosed with love lately.
Haha and the person is God.

dunno lately just been feeling that everything in my life cannot be without him. i grew up with Him always there. Everything i do it seems like he's always there. everything i have today, who i am was really given by God. My singing ( i couldn't sing like the way i sing in the past), my studies ( i was never thought to be university material), my out going personality ( i was never very well liked by my friends, maybe some still find me irritating but they still like me heh). i really thank god that i am who i am. i'm really happy with myself. i love my face, my hands, my head (contrary to what ppl think), everything. God gave it all to me. i'm glad i came to church. God gave me so many things that i would never have if i were out there.

Father, i thank you, you have so wonderfully made me. i am so in love with you. God you give me so much freedom and have so much confidence that i would come back to you. You are really a good dad.

Back

2008-11-28T05:04:00.000-08:00

Have been away for a while. :):) don't know what to say but this week has been a fantastic week. Dunno y but i think smth changed in me after AC.
was really impacted by what willy said about enjoying your time with friends and all. i want to enjoy every moment of my life, everything that i do i want it to be so real:)

INDO

2008-11-11T04:05:00.000-08:00

3 MORE DAYS TO INDONESIA!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!

MY MOBILE PIC 2

2008-10-31T09:50:00.000-07:00

The "Special" musical kidss

Seon min my tuition kid

My wierd tuition kid. Look at her bottle

Cool specs right? Cool kid too

MEEEE

Daryl helping tiff while i monkey ard.

FILL YOUR STOMAchsssssssss

2008-10-24T08:59:00.000-07:00

BEEF STEW

Erika's mum taught me. i tell u it's soooooooo GOOOOOOOD !!!!!!!!!!! it"s gonna be cooked overnight so it's going to be melting in your mouths cell group member!!!

I FINALLY GOT ACCESS TO MY PHONE PICS

2008-10-22T06:30:00.000-07:00

PULAU UBIN

The next few blogs are going to be all the pics that i want to show you guys but cos i didn't know how to use my phone so couldn't put it up. Anyway FINALLY GOT IT OUT. SO enjoys the pics. i LUVVV taking pictures!!!

We were on bikes the whole day!
The boat quite lao ya right?
The girly girls
Touch from God???

Walk in the forest

One of my passions is to take pictures

NO PHOTOSHOP OK!!

All original

I love nature especially trees

Xue Song also learn how to camwhore after gg out with us. HEEE

Cool Right. Miko I take nice Pic of u lorzzz!

I love the colours
Evil looking cat

US!
Who Else can this be? She sleeps everywhere she goes!

Still trying to deny it's her (think i got the wrong person. Think this is miko)

I love the life saving bouy. Really nice for photo taking
ME!!
Hmm i should add like a romantic text to it or smth

Set Them Free

2008-10-16T21:49:00.000-07:00

Today i was just thinking about this question? who's side would u be on if smth happens? Is it your sibling or is it your children? Of cos children as many would say. i was thinking about this cos i was talking to someone and happened so we were having an fake argument ( as many would know, i scold ppl alot hahahaha!) then this person said to a close friend " u should be on my side lah!" My friend was really smart. he just kept quiet. It's just triggered in my mind to question is this person really on my side. I was a bit taken aback by the silence. It just came in my mind today that many times we expect the people we love and care about to be on our side. What"s more is that when they don't meet our expectations, we get angry or insercure or doubt their concern for us. I realise that having these emotions is really quite selfish. It's like you want to own ur friend's love and condern for you. It's really robbing your friend of the freedom to care and love you at their own will. Then it came to my mind that love is really about giving. not just phsically giving of things but giving the person the freedom and freeplay to show their love and concern at their own timing. i really want to give more than i take. i resolute to set my closest friends free. i want to be a giving person....

Heroin looking baking soda

2008-10-08T16:58:00.000-07:00

Cleaning is soooo tedious!! i've been cleaning my house like a mad man cos the cell group is using it for our meeting this week. i still have so much to be done. In the midst of cleaning i found this particularly useful cleaning agaent. Homemade recepie so more. Tada!!!!

Yup Baking soda with warm water works wonders. it does look a bit like heroin but don't worry i'm not a junkie. It really really baking soda.::::))))

new vision

2008-10-05T16:24:00.000-07:00

It's a new day, it's a new vision. everything feels fresh now. starting from scratch again. i was made to think what matters most to me and it's really a tough question. What matters most to you? i realised when this question came up that i seem to be quite jaded and disinterested with life. then this morning i decided that maybe i should decide what matters most to me. i really want to share with people that there is really accpectance. coming to church has been the most wonderful experience for me, god really brought people who care and love me. every time i think about it, i just feel like i really do have a family. i want people to hear the same thing about how god can give them the same thing. i will make this a new purpose this season and see how it goes.

Good memories

2008-10-03T08:15:00.000-07:00

Just over the phone with one of my closest brother. i felt like i wanted to pray for him. there is a connection i cannot explain, a cord so thick that cannot be broken. when i was praying god reminded me the days we were in SOT and how we cried out to Him to be pure, to work in our lives. I thank you bro for the lessons you taught through your life. Your example has always encouraged me. thank you. we have a long way to go. In this many years to come i want to see u get a wife, have kids, grow old, become successful. i pray for all the good things in life to come to you. i look forward to the many years of fellowship to come.

sleeping sleep

2008-09-24T16:18:00.000-07:00

Yo it's a great morning. I really felt fantastic and happy with enough sleep!! i slept 930 last night. ah i feel soo good today. So my advice stop late night msning and doing nothing on the com. :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

reminder

2008-09-15T05:58:00.000-07:00

Read the bible and this was what came up.
12Make sure that your own hearts are not evil and unbelieving, turning you away from the living God. 13 you must warn each other everyday.
19 So we see that they were not allowed to enter his rest because of their unbelief.

I was wondering why recently i feel so drained and tired and negative all the time. Then i read this. we need to never stop believing. it sucks you dry. This week belongs to God.

Many MEssssssss

2008-06-13T06:47:00.000-07:00

(this is what i do)

Went back for reservice the past two weeks. It's actually quite a wonderful feeling. Woke up the second to a peaceful moring in camp. It was so quiet not like my house in the moring where u have the roaring TV. Camp was really quiet and peaceful. :):):):) i always dreamed about having a house like that. I love camp and the disciplies and stuff. I made a lot of friends and it's great. But i really liked the quiet part and i realised also how much i changed as a person. This may sound terribly self centered, vain or what u call it but i actually really like myself. i don't know how to explain it but i really like myself. i discovered stuff i liked about myself. I realised that i didn't care how people looked at me. And it's actually ok to be not popular and be normal. i always wanted to be center of the conversation and allow people to be amazed at me but i realised that i'm happy people not noticing me or just being alone. HEEEE. Anyway frieds if u are reading this. is it ok if u guys take me off your link on your blog. I want to be able to write freely and share my life with u guys. Now that my blog is getting less people. i actually feel that i can share more of my life with u guys:)

This is so amazing. I was just randomly searching online picutures and i decided to type in my own name. And guess what? There is another person who has the exactly same name as me and he is also from amour. This is so cool. This is the link http://uk.geocities.com/sadf_history3/klow.html but he is a missing person though.

Keith Low the academic http://www.yorku.ca/ycom/gazette/past/archive/2001/011701/current.htm

Keith Low the musician (double bassist)

Dr Bruce Keith low. http://www.brucekeithlow.com/keithlow.html

So weird. HAHAHA. Maybe u guys can search your name today heee.

Below are pics that i like. Super random but super nice. I want to take pics like that. SOMEONE please teach me!!!!

:):)

2008-06-08T07:33:00.000-07:00

:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)
HAPPY SHALALALA

Being happy isn't easy
But it isn't that hard either
all u got to do is just ignore what u cannot control
Do what u can control to the best
Love what u like
Then there u have it,
A big smiley face

:)

Blogs blogs blogs

2008-05-27T01:29:00.000-07:00

Reading random blogs today. How creative the world of blog is. What are we up to maintain a blog? HMMM beats me. I read xiaxue after a long time. She kinda of interesting like paris hilton. Thriving on media attention. But i guess she prob doesn't do it on purpose cos i prob think that she gets hurt all the time by the criticism. Anyway i totally agree with her that people have terrible thoughts in their minds just that they don't say it out. so i guess we should stop judging her. In fact i think she's kinda funny.

i'm back

2008-02-12T08:16:00.000-08:00

recently it's been really tough with so much in my mind. i really feel very stress abt it. Please pray for me.

RE: Feeling better

2008-01-03T04:06:00.001-08:00

Just want to reply to the feeling better post. I should rephrase myself about what i meant. hmm i seriously don't think that sinning is alright. In fact the wages of sin is death. What i meant in that blog entry is that sometimes when we fall into sin we get discourage. But of cos we definitly confess our sins and ask for forgiveness. what i'm saying is that we shouldn't feel condemned but rather we need to know that when we sincerely ask for forgiveness and God forgives us we need to realise that we can move on in God and God still can use us. We shouldn't be feeling condemn that we sinned and God can't use us anymore.

ramblings!

2007-12-05T02:12:00.000-08:00

Hmm in school the whole day:( was on the com and just looking around. actually i have a lot to do but just don't feel like getting to it right now. It's a rainy day. Rainy day:( glum. hmmmm.i want the sun and the heat that comes with it. i want the sea and it's wonderful breeze. i want to be free from voices around and in my mind. i want quiet. everything to stop so that i can be the only one walking in it. i want to take my time to see everything and feel everything without anything or anyone bothering me. i want the raindrops to stop in mid air. i want to just slow down. Is it all about doing doing doing? practice makes perfect they say. i don't know what to say anymore.

ramblings.....

Feeling Better!!!

2007-11-16T09:44:00.001-08:00

Please read reply

Was just praying just now. And i was quite discouraged about alot of things and i was complaining to god how i had all these flaws and sins in my life. And that they were stopping me from doing more for him. U know how it is when not alot is going your way and u start going about how bad u are that's why God's not using you. Blah Blah, i was was doing my fair share of it, then i think it really provoked God. I just felt something spoke in to my spirit like " what makes u think u are not good enough? And what makes u think that u not being used not because u have all these sins and not because i'm saving something bigger for you?" It was along these lines. I was quite shocked. I was really encouraged. I was singing this song and one of the lines went" Nothing that you have done could ever close the door." I just felt that that God looks beyond our sins and even in the midst of our imperfection, i think God can still use us. i Still remember something Xin Hong told me and that is when God saved us, God knew exactly what he was getting in to. He saved us for who we are. I just felt in my heart that God is a very stable God, He isn't panicking about a wrong bet he bought when we fall to sin. He knows that we will fall and yet still want us. i feel right now like i'm really good enough. But God in the meantime please really clean me up!

Mental tracks

2007-11-06T07:56:00.000-08:00

Been having a crazy time of my life these past months. Things have been really rough but i'm glad i went through all the things i went through. Many things change and many cause and effects happened. Although i want to to say i have many regrets, i think i shouldn't regret anything that happened. I didn't like what i went through but i felt it was absolutely necessary i went through them. I'm off for a new start and over this period of time i think i have really grown as a person. Living for God isn't really an easy thing sometimes. It used to be a lot easier when i first started but as i moved on it really test my patience, or i should say everything. I'm glad I'm still a Christian after all this time. i was watching evans almighty the other day and something in it kind of ringed a bell. In the show God gave a few examples. He asked that if we prayed to be courageous, does god give u courage or give u an opportunity to be courageous? or if we ask that we have a closer family, does God give u a closer family or an opportunity to have a closer family? This kept me thinking. In my opinion it's both, first he gives the capacity then the opportunity. Then i thought again. We must be careful what we ask for. We ask that God give us patience, can u imagine what kind of people will let us meet or if we prayed that we want to do great works, can u imagine what kind of difficulty we have to face. We pray that we want to be secure, can u imagine the kind of things that will test ur security. I don't know about u but this tell me that we must be really careful what we ask for and more than just that, we really have to mentally prepare ourselves of what we will meet. i mean probably when u read this u go like oh i know that and stuff but when u go through difficult times, think about it, are u going to stand up to the test and remember that all these are just tests?
There is just so much out there that are waiting to tear us apart but yet none of that happens until u pray and are ready to face it. That's how good god is. i truly believe that God place everything in my life to grow me, no matter what.

listening to lectures

2007-10-18T02:13:00.000-07:00

Was listening to lectures online these few days. U know what i actually find studying fun. I actually understood the lectures. Hmmm think i need to catch up alot faster though exams are in like 3 weeks. Don't know y actually studying can be quite easy if u stop hating it :) What do u think?

What is love

2007-10-08T09:18:00.000-07:00

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
1 Cor 13: 4-8
Find out who u are and purpose to act it out.
-a walk to remember

Quizzzz

2007-10-02T09:36:00.000-07:00

This week is almost half over. i can't wait for Saturday to be so over. Sometimes schools so stressful and u end up doing all sorts of silly and unnecessary things. u know how u are suppose to study but it's just so overwhelming that u don't feel like studying anymore, then u end up doing something dumb. oh well! study is good for u. The result of getting an honors is definitely worth it.
i must get back to study now!

Work

2007-09-29T06:55:00.001-07:00

Recess is super over now and i stand looking at 4 quizzes and one full lab report. God u must help me this time. i have so much inertia to work right now. This past weeks has been quite rough but i guess it's over now. I was talking to a friend just now and was really encourage that when God saved us he know what he was getting into. God is in the business of changing me into a better person. I've decided to let things go and move on. though still a bit sore from things but i think i'll be fine. God is good. think it's time for me to focus and do well and excell.

India

2007-09-21T06:53:00.000-07:00

I don't know whether u guys will believe me but i actually went to india. kinda of missed army today so i was thinking of india where i had all the fun. It was a fantastic trip with my best buddies Isaac and KH. It's more than a year ago already. Time really flies i tell. They practically have wings. Actually i can't wait to wait to go for a trip like that next year, really need to save up. hmmm. ok i am craz about pictures so here they are

some kids that wanted our bottles. They are really cute and they love criket.

Desert sunset. Cool huh

What's going to india without vising the famous Taj.

Public apology

2007-09-21T05:51:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone,

just want to make an apology for the two articles "Somebody's someone" and "miss someone". Think it has been quite a rumour and caused quite alot of commotion. Just want to apologise for the irresponsible act of not considering the consequence. i want to apologise for being childish and myopic, not considering about the aftermath of the two articles. I just want to make clear that the articles was not meant to demean or to embarassed, so whoever is involved just want to say sorry. Most importantly please do not let any of this these jeapordize any friendships. Let not any relationships be broken beacuse of this. I apologize causing all this strife again.

Perspective

2007-09-19T19:55:00.000-07:00

i haven been thinking alot lately and many things came through my mind.

i was thinking that life is all about working hard and preparing yourselves. Opportunities come and go. So the only way is to prepare and when it comes u will have no regrets. i need to work harder.

Next i have been thinking about friendships. Your close friend is only close when it's both ways. I decided that i should just be comfortable with how i relate to others but not expect anything in return. That way i think everything extra becomes a blessing right?

hmmm i reliase that there are many people reading my blog i'm really open to comments so u guys can email me or post a comment u would like to voice your views:)

sorry

2007-09-11T09:05:00.000-07:00

Today i did something really wrong. I accused a friend of things that he never did. I accused him of not treating me as a friend and said really alot of nasty and ungrateful thing. I wonder y i slammed him the way i did. i really took him for granted that everytime i say something that he will forgive me. i wronged him big time. i know it's a wound that will form a scar that will never be forgotten. i'm sorry. Now because of what i said, there will be many consequences that i am going to have to bear. many things that i will have to give up. Many times the closer i get to a friend, the more i do stupid things to them thinking that they have to put up with my lousy attitude.i am glad this friend forgave me. i love and respect him dearly. i know i am still childish and immature in many ways and i'm not proud of it. Spilt milk what can i do? Friend i'm really sorry. Don't think u will be reading this but if u are. i'm sorry. if there is smth u need i will do it for u. just tell me. i'm really really sorry

i feel encouraged.

2007-09-10T09:02:00.000-07:00

have u guys ever wondered what u are worth?
i constantly ponder.
is it in terms of....... money........ ppl's opinions....... etc?

i am still in the finding!

Everyone wants to be special

what if u are not?

What if u are?

then what?

i was talking to a friend and this came to my mind.

God has a special way for every one of us, his special way. God knows how i am like and the issues i have. He carefully deals with my every emotion, every need. i know i'm in good hands. i can have rest:)

SOT GRAD

2007-09-06T22:56:00.001-07:00

Thoughts

2007-09-06T20:05:00.000-07:00

Hai i know some of you guys are waithing for the SOT pics but seriously there is like a million pics. I must find a way to do it.

Anyway, i have been super unproductive these few days. I really need to streamline my my to make it more effective.

Just a few things

For those who read my blog because of the videos. Hmm yeah that's me, sometimes i just get into these funny modes of craziness. hahaha. But i'm not like that all the time so don't worry.

For Marwin's friends. Seriously i'm STRAIGHT so please don't let him spoil my good name.

For those whom i don't know reading my blog. I'm really fine if u tag so don't worry.

Plus really sorry not blogging much lately. University is kinda of heavy with work and loads more. Sometimes you just don't know where to start and you waste more time. Hai. ok enough of blogging i need to get back to work:)

Xin Hong says

2007-09-01T10:42:00.000-07:00

Xin Hong says:
God showed me something when I was 15
keith says:
show what?
Xin Hong says:
I was climbing a mountain in malaysia
Xin Hong says:
I lost my glasses
Xin Hong says:
But I told myself I wanted to be first up on that mountain
Xin Hong says:
So I just charge ahead right behind the local guide
Xin Hong says:
Why?
Xin Hong says:
Cos God showed me that everyday we live, everything we accomplish, everything we do
Xin Hong says:
We are writing our own story. Our own novel.
Xin Hong says:
That this life, can turn up as one of thousands of God's failures, or one of His few successes
Xin Hong says:
Simply by our actions and decisions
Xin Hong says:
We are writing our own history every single day
Xin Hong says:
And I told myself at the end of my life, I want to look back and know that the novel I have written was one darn good read
Xin Hong says:
And I encourage you to do all you can, burn those bridges and make your novel one darn good read too
Xin Hong says:
There are still many pages in there keith
Xin Hong says:
Just write with care and I'm sure you will have a really nice book by the time you are done
Xin Hong says:
When you think of life like that, it makes you do Crazy things. Crazy but not stupid. Radical, Crazy and audacious things
Xin Hong says:
you just tell yourself, dang, it's between success and failure. Count my cost and just go in for the kill and go for success
Xin Hong says:
And many times, you will get it

Xin Hong says:
But God challenged me that day, "What will people remember you for? Will they remember you for being number 2?" That essentially drove me up the mountain

Fantastic Day

2007-08-30T06:30:00.000-07:00

It's teacher's day and this is what i got! Jeans!!! yeah! All u tuition teachers out there be jealous ok!! How many people have their tuition kids buying them stuff. And guess who bought it?

Yes!

THE SLASHER!!!!

(marwin)

I love my jeans i'm going to wear it tmr and on sat! U know what i have been wanting a pair of jeans actually. And he got me a colour that i didn't have. Plus it like super nice lah.
Happy Teacher's Day!

Anyway i really think that Marwin has really been a blessing from heaven. I tell u it's really God. I think Me and Marwin are going to be friends not just teacher and student. I actually like hanging out with him. Hahaha. Quite crapy loh that Guy. For all Who DOn't know him It's ur lost!!! Again if Marwin u are reading this. Thank U!!!!!!

By the way I just cut my hair today! Went back to my old time hairstylist. I tell u i simply love them. They are just so professional. By the way i cut at far east plaza "Expect". It's really not bad and not too expensive. My hair stylist is called Grace. She's good i tell u. I asked her to cut 白痴 hairstyle and it turned out not bad, at least i like it. Heee!

Batam Photos i took. This is on the ferry! It was wonderful sitting alone. I love the solitude

Ok this is Ming li! But her english name is called Beng li. So we bought her a Beng Beng stick. She's is one of those persons i love hanging out with in SOT. She is super nice and friendly. Another loss if u don't know her. So thank u for being the fun person u are!!!

Pic took!!!

2007-08-24T06:33:00.000-07:00

A picture i took at marina south using Willy's camera. I just love the colours. Don't u?

SOT Coming to a close.

2007-08-23T09:05:00.000-07:00

As SOT comes to a close, I am actually quite excited about finishing it. I Don't know what what's gonna happen but i really wanna do something. Nothing has really been fixed as yet but i know that there are many things that are coming my way. I don't know what but i am just waiting. These past four months has been amazing and really my life has changed. Something in me just isn't the same anymore. Don't know how to explain that kind of feeling it just isn't the same anymore! one more week! one more week!

It's ok to be me

2007-08-10T05:42:00.001-07:00

Today i was thinking about myself, about who i really am. There are many things that i am not happy with myself and things that people always laugh. Sometimes i really don't want to be me. But today something resolved in my mind. Somehow i felt that it was ok to be me. Someone told me that i just can't make everyone happy and there are bound to be people that don't like me. I mean i want to be liked and to be favoured and many times i try to be who i'm not just to fit in. Today something in me felt this: It's really ok to be me.

Pondering.

2007-08-10T04:42:00.000-07:00

was watching the 7 o'clock chinese show toay. Call me china pok if u want. I was deeply touched. What would u do if one day ur loved one were to have something really bad happening to them? I mean like the the really traumatizing kind. And how sacrificial would u be? i cannot express the kind of feeling in my heart. i really felt convicted. I mean even in small things that i am asked to do among my friends sometimes i already whine ( yes for all of u out there! i admit that i whine). It's really not easy to do things for the sake of others. I mean would you do something extra just for a friend even if it inconvenienced yourself. I mean many times when bad things happen to our friends, we just go and say like are u ok and stuff. Then try to talk to the person. I always thought that talking would help but i realised most of the time people don't really want to talk. During this time would you go all the way down to the person's house in say pasir ris and u stay in like jurong. U are tired and u have a lot of work to rush plus next day u have to wake up at 7. It's already 10 in the night. Ur friend sounded depressed and just wanted to talk to u for no reason but u know that the person needs it. ok this is a close but not so close friend just a ok good friend. would you go all the way? it's really tough and for myself and i struggle. I mean the person is not so close what. hai But watching the show really made me think. i was really inspired to try my best to be more thoughtful. hmmm....

Sorry sometimes i can be very emotional about things but well i personally feel that we should get in touch with our feelings yet not too carried away by it.

Transformers: More than meets the eye.

2007-07-31T06:32:00.000-07:00

I finally watched it today. It was sooo good. The way the transformers change into the vehicles it's just way cool. It went like 'shing' 'shing' 'shing' ' shing shing'. It's really childhood fantasy come true. The effects was so super good. Plus i only spent a mere 6 dollars for the show at cathay that was totally worth it. I went with my buddy Willy. I cannot believe that i didn't like Transformers when i was young.

Now I repent!!!

To couple with my Transfomer watching i have my Robot Necklace from The Life Shop. For those who don't know me. I love necklaces. Especially weird ones. Maybe one day i can blog on my assessories. Don't u think Mr Robot is so cool! I don't mind to watch Transformers again!!! maybe i should buy the DVD.

On top of the Fantanbulous Transformers i went to Kuching Kolo Mee @ killiney road today. I ordered one for a mere $6. The noodles were so thin, covered a mild layer of aromatic sesame oil. The smooth texture ooooooo....... The bite had this something to it that was just soo ......... springy!
The Char Siew roasted just right... sweet and tender. The minced pork with special seasoning was exceptional. Then u have the choice of having either prawns or abalone which i chose prawns ( will try abalone next time) was very chewy. ooo i love the bite of it. Yum! Of cos topped with vegetables and garnish to complete the look.Yeap there u have it Sarawak Kuching Kolo Noodles. U MUST TRY IT!!!

The pic is for real!!!

A tinsy winsy abt myself

2007-07-29T07:05:00.000-07:00

Yes the Pic u are looking at is where i stay. Nice right. I love my house. ok the pic on top is not the best, during time i took it. hee That's y i made it so small. hahaha. Anyway my house is right in front of a water body and it's on a hill so 有山有水. I love it. i went to the park to read my book once. I was feeling quite down that day. I really enjoyed it. U guys should try it. Reading ur book alone in a park really makes u feel like u own urself again. After doing that i was really happy. I felt like i have time for myself again. U guys should do that some time.

So there u have it! me and me book!
I found these toadstools growing in the park. This is something i really like. I really like the small things in life that u discover and the experience u find is like ur little secret. Sometimes we just get into this mad rush and we fail to see the beauty of things and people around. So slow down take ur time appreciate!

By the way i think there are alot of people who read my blog that i do not know. I just want to tell u guys that u guys feel free to leave comments or leave ur email address on the tag. I don't mind another friend! Really expecting some people to msg mua soon!!!Don't be shy alrighty:)

A Prelude

2007-07-29T06:56:00.001-07:00

Hi blog readers!!!

It has been an extremely exciting week for me. Did a drama on sat which turned out not bad. Ate like a mountain of seafood. i haven't gotten the pictures from my friend to update the blog. Gonna get it tmr. So excited. U have to pardon me for not blogging this week. It's super tiring and there are a million things i haven't done! AHHHHHHHH. Anyway i just i want to thank you! YES U THERE! Reading my blog right now! Thank u for ur support! It has barely been a month and u guys help me just hit my first 500. Thank u Sooooooooooo much:)

Me and Me Dentist

2007-07-23T08:12:00.000-07:00

Went out with my favourite dentist on Sat. Hahaha. She sure knows how to bribe me with Ricola and tell me the benefits of it. It has some artifical sweetner that does not promote tooth decay unlike other sweets. Elderflowers is really good ok. It has this subtle herby taste to it. Well Back to my bribing dentist. Her name is Cai Xingni NOT Xing Ni. The space matters ok. Yeap she bugged me for that mistake like forever ok. I call her Prissy. She is very gentle with the teeth, very skilled with her practical. She's actually still an appretice dentist but she quite good lah. She only inflicts pain on herself so don't worry ( private joke! if u know what i mean)
Below is her picccc with the ever supernice thick, creamy choclate fudge cake. I tell u there was more chocolate than sponge. It's from Cafe Cartel and we bought it with a sum total of $2.45. Can u believe it?

That's me resistin the temptation of the simply scrumpalicious cake. I can't wait for my next one.

English Lesson

2007-07-22T05:07:00.001-07:00

The word for the day is ASSIDUITY. Mr XH taught me today. He said he it means sit on ur ass and do it. I thought he made it up but seriously it means that. I put the link up. I cannot believe it myself. It's true. Actually it's kind of inspired me to really be digilient that in whatever u do u have to sit down till its done. Always lack that discipline. ok i decided to try and sit on my ass. Opps i almost forgot that i must after sitting on my ass do things hahaha. so guys say with me air-see-dui-tee, assiduty. hahah.

My 8 year old brother!!!

2007-07-19T08:09:00.000-07:00

I am not Kidding! he is really my brother this is not just his childhood picture but it is him NOW! Yes he is 8 years old. Alright i know what u are thinking right now. You must think i did something wrong when i was younger right? NO wrong he is not my son!! He is my brother. Yeap. We have a 14 years age gap. Talk about generation gap. HAHAHA! OK we do get along lah. He's actually quite monstrous sometimes but he is super good at making u like him after that. Yeap my brother is a PHD in relationships. He's quite a good boy and I do not torture him (this is for u Daryl if u are reading this! hee!). Maybe i'll bring him for the party on NDP.

The SLA......SHER

2007-07-18T06:04:00.000-07:00

Today i'm going to blog about my tuition kid. His name? Marwin Alfredo. Ok it's kinda hard to get his picture cos he is apparently "camera shy". He is meek and nice, kind and loving, peaceful and tranquil. ......... NOT!!!! i wish! My tuition kid is extremely interesting i tell u and i do mean extremely. He never fails to amaze me with his violence. The last time he told me that he used to beat his friends up and even tore his friend's bag before. Can u imagine? Almost got expelled. I mean i was like how bad can u get right! BUT yesterday he told me that he did something worse. Think u can guess from the title! yes he was a slasher (not flasher! no typo hahah). Yeap he was irritated one day and took out a penknife and slashed his friend. Seriously! well of cos the friend provoked him but oh well. So there u have it, THE SLASHER. Ok now u must be worrying for me the decent looking, mr goody goody teacher as u can see from the pic below.
U must think i'm in absolutely grave, life threatening, meat slicing danger. OK RELAXXXXX! THANK GOD it was his past!!! He's really very changed now. Although sometimes he can be really irritating with his name calling (stop being irritating), he is really a good guy. An extremely loyal friend. His philosophy? If u treat him nice, he will treat u nice. u must be wondering y he changed! i was too so i asked and he told me it was God. hmm who is this God??? he never fails to amaze. I mean like u always hear stories like that right. It's until u know someone like that u would never atually know how real it is............

SeNToSa!!!

2007-07-18T05:07:00.000-07:00

Was kinda bored when i was doing so took some twigs and started twisting and stuff. So that's Sentosa for u! After u finished with ur games, food, tan, u start doing things like this. didn't resize my pics so it's kinda taking a million years to upload this . hai!!!

Yeap we were at Siloso beach!!!. Thinking of going to Sentosa already. Don't u think it's quite a good shot.

This is again ME!!! I think i look different everytime. Maybe it's my ever-colour-fading hair. i think i'm too fair. My skin looks soft and supple. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Pray i get a tan sooon ok. The pictures are really driving me nuts. Willy y didn't u send me the resizwer sooner.

This is called island life. I thought this was quite a good shot. Don't u think? By the way he's Zheng Wei. Any takers?( Zheng wei u better thank me for glamourizing u ok. )

Everyone deserves a nice sunset after along day at the beach. By the way this is Sentosa for all u love birds out there. Who says singapore got no sunset!!!!!!

Dreams

2007-07-15T07:58:00.001-07:00

Where do i go?
What do i do?
Seeing people succeed,
a subtle regret
Why didn't i do that too?

Where do i go?
What do i do?
My heart yearns to do more.
My hopes waver everyday.
When is it my turn?

Where do i go?
What do i do?
Patient and more patience?
Endure and more endurance?

How long more?
How long more?

Have u felt this way? like your life is going really slowly and i do mean reallllllliiiiiii slowly. i must admit that this happens all the time for me. But as i go along in life i feel like actually though i want all my dreams to still happen but i'm not really so hard up for it anymore. I used to jump at any opportunity that comes or create my own opportunity through manipulative methods. I bet most of us do. I'm starting to realise that actually i am not happy at all that way. i realise that if i take things slow and let them come naturally, i actually feel less pressured and everything comes as a pleasant surprise. i guess i'm getting old. heeee. cos i more patient with myself heee. (hmm old=patient???)

Mystery girl!!!!

2007-07-13T08:26:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone!!! Look WHAT i FOUND. Nothing special? Look closer! It's someone u guys know. Seriously the first time i saw it i had a shock. A real Shock. I bet u must be wondering now right how come she looks so familiar. will tell u all again!

A Long Walk Home

2007-07-13T05:33:00.000-07:00

A fantastic pic by Melvin Migin. I just love the colour of the sea, gives you this surreal feel. And i just love wood. It's really my thing, wood just makes me feel so alive, so down to earth. Don't you feel this strange peace when you look at the pic.

A Long Walk Home.

Healing

2007-07-12T08:30:00.000-07:00

Today in church was just amazing. Bobby asked for ppl who had backache and he kinda of demostrated how healing should be done. He asked the person who needed healing to lean back against a wall andasked that the person stretch out her hands ( if ur hands were not balanced and were stretched with unequal length, it means that u have a back problem.) Of cos the person who went up had the problem and her hand was like one finger segment unequal. Then everyone prayed and her finger started to extend and her backache was gone. OK that was great but not the greatest cos it happened to me toooo.
U have no idea how amazed i was. I had been having frequent backaches and there were times when i couldn't even sit down but well that's normal, i think. Actually i didn't feel that it was that serious but i thought i should get healed too. So i had a few friends who wanted to practice praying for me so we went to the wall and true enough my hands were unequal and it was really obvious. The ppl prayed but i was telling myself to not move my hands to make sure that it was a real healing. I TELL U MY HANDS MOVED NOT AT MY WILL AND IT BALANCED UP. Everyone was was shocked cos it didn't take like 10 secs. i mean i was like WOW and they were like WOW WOW and we were like WOW WOW WOW.
yeap so if u need healing u know who to look for. But well actually it's not difficult if u need healing. Just get a faith filled preacher to do the telling, You do the believeing then God do the healing.
Easy right so y wait! dial heaven's line today and get a preacher Right now! hmmpf.

Hardrock

2007-07-11T07:38:00.000-07:00

Michelle ( haven't met her for like half a year hmm she's flying off again. Sianzzzz)

The Pic we took at Hardrock but look like we took it 20 years ago. By the way i think i know them for almost 7 years already.

Some colour!!

That's me.

2007-07-11T07:26:00.000-07:00

To commence my new blog. A pic of me trying to act cool. heeezzzzz

The Scarlet Blossom

2007-07-11T05:44:00.000-07:00

What onces was
is no more.
Fresh and alive
once
What now lays,
a withered glory.
Where is your beauty blossom?

What was that pain,
that you dyed yourself scarlet.

White and unblemished
Pure and all believing were you.

Where is love?
you ask.
pain and pain again is all you felt.
The pain of losing something so precious
forever.
Pain
Blossom, blossom
Why do you dye yourself blood red?

To be remembered
you say
To be remembered.

In rememberance of a girl i barely knew. Is it all worth it just to be remembered? Y do u corner youself to a way of no return?
Life is precious readers. Sometimes what lies before is just too difficult to unknot. But you know what the solution is?
Time.
Stick around and you will find your answer to whatever. Stick around!